not on earthly things."
the irony, it seems, of walking such a narrow path with any consistency is that your eyes cannot be looking at the path itself; nor can they be glancing either side. your attention cannot be diverted to the landscapes you have already passed; the mountains or valleys that inevitably lie ahead. when we walk according to our own strength, we stumble; when we follow the path according to our own understanding, we fall. we are incapable of traveling this path in our own strength. the only source of true consistency - and of true faithfulness - doesn't stem from anything we can do own our own: we only move forward when we're looking up.
problem is, we're distractable creatures who live in a world with innumerable distractions; we're prideful creatures who think - once we've taken a few bold steps in His grace - we can race ahead on our own. the truth is, the moment we think we are capable of walking on our own is the same moment we walk out of His grace. the truth [that He is constantly revealing to me] is that it is in the mundane tasks of this life that His glory is revealed and that His grace is most sufficient.
the tempation is to compartmentalize our lives. to give Him a part of it: a few moments out of our day; a day out of our week. He wants all of our hearts and all of our lives. there are not just a few among us whom are "called" to this: we are all called to this... to be living sacrifices for His grace. feeling burdened by the innumerable distractions in my own life, i was encouraged when i read these words from Paul:
"So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out... I'm speaking to you out of deep gratitude for all that God has given me, and especially as I have responsibilities in relation to you. Living then, as every one of you does, in pure grace, it's important that you not misinterpret yourselves as people who are bringing this goodness to God. No, God brings it all to you. The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us, not by what we are and what we do for him." the Apostle Paul (Romans 12) MSG
so many years spent trying to walk with more dedication, more resolve. turns out, all i needed to do was admit that i couldn't travel this path on my own, lay down my life as a sacrfice and look up... to the One whose word illuminates the path and whose Spirit changes the shifting shadows of distractions.