Wednesday, October 3, 2012

fall in the middle


"I meant it all and every part
And every word right from the start
I'll never let this love fall in the middle
Through it all...

~ Mat Kearney lyrics

It is all too often, all too easy in the busyness of this life to let our love for the Lord fall in the middle.  Writing has always been, for me, my place of overflow.  His word tells us that from the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks - some sing - others dance - and I write

It is here, on the pages of a blog and at home, on the pages of my journals that this love moves out from the underneath to the place where there is no middle.  All-consuming.   

I love where we see all throughout scripture our God whispering to those whom He had given His word - His promises - and through His prompting He says to them, "write this down".  From beginning to end and "He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." ~ Revelation 21:5

This writing - this blogging - has always been somewhat inexplicable for me.  I can't predict the how, the why.  Bits and pieces of myself poured out - words strung together over pages - and years - forming a long and tattered love letter.  This love, that sometimes falls in the middle - of life.  This love that I have, at times, forsaken for my own pursuit of a lesser substitute.

"Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love." ~ Revelation 2:4

Somehow, when I write - I'm reminded of my first love.  I'm reminded of who I am and more importantly, of who He is.  And so, I've prayed, for a long while, that He would move me to write more and grant me the opportunity to share more.

A few weeks ago, I was standing in my friend Sasha's kitchen - basking in the aroma of the dinner she was preparing for us - when she tells me about a new blog, a collaboration with a few of her fellow friends/writers.  She tells me the concept - the writing and the sharing about this life and this faith and all the places where they intersect, here in the middle.  These proverbial middle places in life - it's something, perhaps the one thing, I know all too well.   She asks me if I would be interested and she's hardly finished asking before I was already nodding and answering, "Yes, yes, yes"... 

The site launched this week, October 1st, and I am one of five bloggers featured weekly (my posts will be featured on Fridays).  I am in humbled awe of this opportunity - and of the community that is already being formed through it.  (You can connect with us on Facebook, too:  https://www.facebook.com/MiddlePlaces).

So many middle places - I don't even know where to begin.  But He does.

And so, I sit down to write - and I beg God for the words, for His presence...

And that I'll never let this love fall in the middle.

Even through these middle places - through it all.

"Cause you know you broke the hardest part
You know you broke the hardest heart
I'll never let this love fall in the middle
Through it all..."
~ Mat Kearney

 

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