Thursday, July 16, 2009

a light unto my [narrow] path...

"Your word is a lamp unto my feet, a light unto my path."
Psalm 119:105

so yesterday morning, i woke up at 4:45 a.m. which, in and of itself, required every fiber of strength and discipline in my being. i was on my bike in spin class for a two hour ride by 5:15. i was grocery shopping [with kids in tow] by 8:30. we spent midday at the pool, had afternoon nap time and then spent the evening at vacation bible school. immediately following their bath and bedtime, i collapsed into my bed at 9:45... stuffed miserably full of pizza rolls, nachos and vanilla pudding that i'd washed down with some delicious, generic fruit punch. i then drifted off into a carb/sugar induced coma...

oh, and how i'd began the day with such good intentions.

as the Lord has drastically shifted the focus of my life over the last few weeks, someone asked me whether or not i would continue to write about health/fitness/weight loss. the answer is a resounding yes. for those of us who have struggled with issues of food and weight, it is the other narrow path. paved with obstacles, temptations, detours and failures. there are so many proverbial parallels between the two, i could analogize all day long about the difficulties and the discipline required to travel either of them on a daily basis.

as we grow in both maturity and experience on either narrow path, the obstacles and temptations begin to change in equal proportion. what would've once caused me to fall flat on my face now causes me to stumble slightly. what was once a boulder is now a pebble. the difficulty of the course never changes, but our perspective changes constantly giving way to what becomes our perseverance.

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning." (Lam 3:22-23) ESV

i've been quiet the last week or so. the Lord constantly reminds me of the verse in Psalms, which says, "Be still and know that I am God". deepening a walk with Him is difficult with a heart that is closed and a mouth that is always open.

open heart. closed mouth. i repeat this to myself like a mantra, each phrase with each step. the desire of my heart is to adhere to His path and abide in Him. having lost my way so many, many, hear me - many - times before, i have pondered and prayed about how i can walk differently. obviously, walking alone has been an unwise choice. left up to my own will, i seem to have an affinity for wandering... and darkness.

when i was choosing the photograph for the header of this blog, this is the one i chose initially:


darker and foggier, the path barely visible. my good friend christian was quick to point this out to me. "but it really does look like my path", i thought to myself. you know, shady. difficult to follow. creepy. no wonder i kept getting lost. "Lord, if only there were a light... " and i was reminded...

"Your word is a lamp unto my feet, a light unto my path." Psalm 119:105

Our pastor, Dr. David Platt, once said that "God's word is the only means by which our minds can be transformed." it is also the means by which the narrow path can be transformed, from dark and desolate to filled with light.

1 comment:

  1. I just started my blog! I love yours! And I really love the verse for this blog! It's always reminds me that He is leading and guiding me where He I need to be. Happy Blogging!!

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