Tuesday, December 30, 2008

be still and know.

still water. black mountain, nc. 2002.

according to the movie, happy feet, all penguins have a heart song. in the movie, a few of them conjure up their own personal heart songs. but most of them choose something less original, like lyrics written by Salt N Pepa ... or Elvis. chloe told me one day in the car that her heart song was "Jesus Loves Me". i almost had to pull the car over to sob. "that is a wonderful heart song," i said, struggling to remain composed.

psalm 46:10 is my heart verse. it has been almost a year since the Lord pressed that verse firmly into my heart, beginning a work in me that i have often rebelled against and a work that will, inevitably, take much longer than the He would like, i know. i have a very difficult time being still. i have an even harder time being silent. often, this makes "quiet time" a struggle. and more often, an afterthought in the busyness of life.

nearing the end of this year, there are a plethora of things i could lament over in reflection: mistakes. failures. wrong choices. heartache. divorce. but there is something greater that overshadows it all. something that is ever present. unchanging. God's faithfulness. in those rare moments when i am quiet and still, that verse penetrates the hardness that all of my business has created in my heart. and i am overwhelmed by the realization that He is still here. i'm still learning to stop asking him why.

my heart verse remains consistent, but my heart song changes. throughout most of this year, it has been 'you never let go' by matt redman and the one by the david crowder band. even in the midst of my occasional wandering in the wilderness and outright rebellion, the Lord has taught me over and over and over... and over... that He is faithful to the covenant we make with Him. not in spite of who we are. but because of who we are. and that is captivating. and so, my heart song for today is 'captivated' by shawn mcdonald.

When I wake unto the morning
It gives me Your sight
When I look across the ocean
It echoes Your might
The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea
The air in my lungs and the way You made me
That's what draws me to You

I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated'

The wind and the clouds and the blue in the sky
The sun and the moon and the stars so high
The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea
The air in my lungs and the way You made me

The blood in my veins and my heart You invade
The plants how they grow and the tree and their shade
The way that I feel and love in my soul
I thank you my God for letting me, letting me know.

BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD. PSALM 46:10

2 comments:

  1. I love that verse.

    Just dropped by to check out your blog. I love your writing style.

    God Bless and Happy New Years!

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  2. Applause! Applause! For you, for your photo of Black Mountain and for all He has done for us!

    ~m

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